there is no such thing as an altruist. the only reason anyone does anything is to further their own self interest. 'philanthropists' who give huge sums of money to charity or spend all their time performing 'community service' do that shit because they get off on selflessness or because it improves their image. if they didn't enjoy performing such kindhearted actions or if they didn't help them they simply wouldn't do them. actually sometimes it could be done out of necessity like if a billionaire celebrity isn't constantly dumping lots of cash into good causes he'll be percieved as a greedy shithole and ppl will stop liking him and he will no longer be rich/famous/adored.
one implication of this is that yr friends aren't really yr friends, they don't really genuinely care about you. they are friends with you for their own benefit, either so they can constantly borrow money from you or use you as a wingman or for your connections. or maybe they actually just enjoy yr company because you are funny/witty/attractive/etc so association with you improves their status (but that's unlikely honestly) the bottom line is that no one gives a shit about you and like it or not you don't give a shit about anyone else
even like, buddhists, they're all like "rid yourself of all desire! and you will find nirvana" oh yeah? if you're as disconnected from desire as you claim, why do you want to achieve nirvana so badly. looks like the justification for your lifestyle has more holes than the tattered robe you're wearing
bottom line is: next time someone gives you a gift you should call him out on being a piece of shit instead of thanking him
